3: School starts in a week

2: My birthday is soooon

1: I=FAIL



bear with me guys....please??
i'm hoping this slump ends soon.

so....
sorry i haven't beed on here as much as i would have liked to be this summer. there has just been so much stpuid crazy crap going on,and if you know me in real life you probably have somewhat of an idea what i mean. it's just been kinda tough to find any sort of motivation. BUT i've decided not to become a whiny pain in your ass and get off my own lazy ass to try producing something worthwhile, and maybe just maybe escape reality in the process.
i'm going to learn how to use better photo editig software, writ me a song, and even try my hand at sewing again. Of course, i'm going to give writing another shot. i've already got me a few ideas.

P.S. Thanks guys. i believe you know what i mean, and it really does mean so much to me that you're patient with me and my horrible ranting and emotional freak outs and my uncontrollable need to apologize for the stupidest things.
thank you thank you thank you.

.............DONE BEING SAPPY NOW



by the way......
1997 is quite possibaly onw of the worlds greatest bands.
you should go see them live. you should.

yup...
done with another school year.
I'M UPPERCLASS NOW!

.......i might upload some writing i did for class soon.
and Amanda, i'll get those pictures to you as soon as i can. i'm waiting for my dad to fix the stupid computer...

so....i went to church with my mother on mother's day....and it was interesting/scary.
WEll, first off, our paster said SEX during prayer. not as in gender, but as in the act of.
-ithoughitwasfunny-
then some random lady sitting up front just randomly started screaming and crying....she was haiving a seizure, but every one was all like "ITS A MESSEGE FROM GOD!!!!!" and they were all like "THANKYOU GOD." i was like "....some one please call the hospital, this woman is having a seizure." but.....no. it was scary, and i never want to go there again. -even though i work there.-

then we went home, and i find out that my cool uncle is....welll.......basically kind of a pornstar.
what does that say about me?


anyway, only 9 days of school left.
This time of year is both a blessing and a curse. it's time to look back and think "Wow, look at how much i've changed." and also "wow, look at how muh time i've wasted."
eh.

hello again from journal-update land.
it's been a looong crazy, stupid, crappy, dumb, and slightly wonderful month.
two nights before the play at dress rehersal, my scene partner (the one i wanted to strangle, remember?) walked out. QUIT. i was pissed. but Tanner Smith is like a god, and learned all the dumbass's lines in 48 hours. he actually knew the lines better than SOMEONE who was supposed to know the lines a month ago, but spend all his time dicking around and not learning his lines. i was pissed, but i'm kinda glad he quit.
And all my friends came to see, and laughed at my funny line deliveries (bonus). THANKYOU!!!! i love you ever so dearly. then we went to village inn and the MADS -also the name of a danish kid who kicks me as a hate crime, because i'm American, and he's a dick.- was created, and we all consumed pie, and i also played scattegories -or is it strategories?- with a japaneese girl. it was interesting.

the next weekend was state solo contest.
..................not great. well, not even really good.
i walked into the room and looked at the judge and stopped breathing and sounded horrible.
-for some reason, i find it easier to stand on a stage in front of like, a hundred people and crack jokes than to stand in front of like 5 and sing. weird, eh?-
so.....that night i went home and then out to house of bricks -it's a bar- to see theAUDTION in concert, for some good ol' cheering up. we ended up falling in love with this Canadian band named Kiros, (who have chickenfights outside with random people, wearing pastel girl-skinny jeans onstage, and giving us their left over french fries. AMANDA GOT A TATTOO OF SUPER JESUS!!!!!) and eventually, stabbed with plastic daggers.
and i told my dad to get me ramune on monday nd he came home with like 5 bottles from the orietntal food store next door to the house of bricks.

Monday a senoir at our school died, and the whole week has been nuts. and sad. everyone criede. i cried, and i didn't even know the kid. but he was well-liked.

Next week is show choir dinner theatre....and i really hope we're ready, but we probably won't be. that's all i can say at this point.

Last night i found some poems i wrote in 8th grade. maybe i'll upload. i'm also gonna challenge myself with the photography....and try some new things. -sssshhhhhh....it'll but a surprise maybe?-

.............. i just sneezed..............

OH! and if you could't tell, i've been watching Juno.
i just had my first adventure in ordering pizza via telephone, and it was kinda scary. i used my mom's name and they called back, and i thought i was gonna get busted, but i didn't.

....and if you read all this, then i love you, even though you probably have no life.








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